Great News/Tough Decision... Yes/No??

[geenadavis]

I just got back from a workshop with Debbie Ford (Shadow Process Workshop) and have made the incredibly exciting/scary decision to become one of her Integrative Coaches.  Over the weekend, I realized that it is a very big part of my purpose on earth to bring this information to a younger group of people. When I spoke to her at the end of the workshop she said "We need you." ....And immediately, my soul breathed a "YES" that echoed through my body. In that moment, I could feel the order of my life and every challenge I've faced starting to make sense.

I preface this before my question bc I finally feel like I have value to add to the world and there's no time to lose.

Here's my situation.... The next step in her coaching program starts TODAY. Now, they are doing this first call for free, but to enroll in the program is $2500. I'm paying off other expenses that add up to about $2800 right now. I make OK money for living here in nyc... And I do get about a $2000-ish bonus at the end of the year with my company. 

The cavaet: I am also an actor.... who just got an agent.... and will be auditioning professionally shortly.... and am nervous about leaving my safe secure (uninspiring) job to jump into that world. So I'm nervous that I won't have enough money to pay off my bills and keep living in nyc and do Debbie's program. Especially if I wind up leaving before the end of the year.... But then I also think, if I do start working f/t in the acting, then I will be making good money.... but..... (enter self-doubt )

Is this just my fear talking? Should I trust that the money will come bc I'll be more "on purpose?" I'm confused and torn. The next program starts in March, but i don't think I want to wait that long... !! 

Thoughts?

Thanks!!

Karen

[Elese]

Hi Karen,

I'm in the second year of training at JFK University in Debbie Ford's Institute for Integrative Coaching and I can tell you that if you felt your 'woosh' and wish to follow that, the course will not disappoint you.  They do a very flexible payment plan month by month which you may wish to consider.  People struggle with this all the time, and you can speak to the course coaches who will give you thoughts on how you can guide yourself to a decision.  But no one can tell you what the right decision for you is.

I love that you've touched on your 'yes' and your 'value to the world'.  You are right, no time to lose! No time to lose to value yourself and allow this value to expand in your own life that is! Here's a question for you... What is one action you could take today to love and value and be gentle with yourself as you make this decision?  Is it possible you are of great value to the world even now just as you are?  Maybe consider or journal on this, weigh up your $$ inputs and outputs and play with ways you might want to change how you look at the 'affordability' issue.  Go to the Tips Vault and look up Michael's Tips on Money. There are some great exercises in there on making money decisions.  Don't hesitate to trust yourself and if you like, use the inner processes from the Shadow Workshop to reach inside and ask yourself 'what do I value and where are my priorities right now'?  When you've heard the answer for you - ask yourself what your next step would be if you were a person who already has great value in this world!

with love,

Elese

[geenadavis]

Hi Elese,

Thank you so much!! I really value your thoughts. I didn't expect to find anyone else in Debbie's program responding to my question, so it was a very pleasant surprise!

I have decided to wait until march to begin the program officially. It just feels better in my gut and I think right now I would be overwhelmed with it. That said, I am doing Debbie's free 90-day Radical Reinvention to transform one aspect of my life. So I can keep up with the work through that

I love thinking about what I would do if i "already had value in this world".... bc I think some of my angst about waiting until march rides on my fear of "I won't be adding value to the world until I learn this material." ...So if I really believed I was adding value to the world right now, it would be ok to wait

thanks so much, again.

Blessings! You rock!

karen

[Elese]

Don't you love that feeling of lining up with yourself?!  It's so great.  *little dance* Saw the radical reinvention prog on Debbie's site and it sounded awesome.  You'll have to keep us posted. 

Anyway, thanks for exposing your own fear thoughts so courageously.  The fear of "I won't be adding value to the world until I learn this material" may not be a principle of universal truth, after all     

And you know, I'm glad you reminded me as I think this way too sometimes... I call it the 'when I'm a certified coach I'll know what to say' thought!  So let's take a dose of my own advice.  Here are a couple ways I add value to the world, even though I haven't finished the training course:  I am kinder to people, I listen to my daughter more closely, I take responsibility for my actions more.   

Hey, that felt kinda good!

love,

Elese

[geenadavis]

And you know, I'm glad you reminded me as I think this way too sometimes... I call it the 'when I'm a certified coach I'll know what to say' thought!  So let's take a dose of my own advice.  Here are a couple ways I add value to the world, even though I haven't finished the training course:  I am kinder to people, I listen to my daughter more closely, I take responsibility for my actions more.  

Amen, sister!

I know I have a tendency to believe that if I'm not in a job I love or directly helping someone in some "big" way, I'm not "worth it" or I'm not "on purpose." ...And I'm certainly not adding value to the world! ....But if I look more closely, I can see the "smaller" ways I do add value every day, just like you mentioned. ....I am kinder to myself and treat myself with more respect than I used to, I look people in the eye and smile, and I am a great aunt karen to three little peanuts  

Cheryl Richardson says, "what you do will always be less important that who you become" and that always gives me great comfort when I don't think I'm where I "should" be. 

thanks for adding value to my world, elese!!

cheers and m&ms!

kb