Hey Peter....
You asked me...who asks the question? Outer me does...
Who answers it? Inner me does.
I understand your principle of oneness- of there being no divison, being all that you ever were, are, and ever will be, and all derived from oneness....all things from the one energy pool.....yet I have a truth of my own, which may not be your truth, and isnt derived from a theory or a premise I have read..and isnt one I have formulated until these words have been typed...
but this is my truth-
my truth is that I am natural spirit and conditioned spirit. There is a duality. There is a struggle. There is a person who raises thoughts in my head and another who answers them. My thought stream is not a monlogue, but a discussion between two opposing belief sytems, one conditioned by known living, one a natural inner guide. Both an instinctive me and a conditoned me. An outer me and an inner me. The inner me trying to grow and claim and spread into the outer me allotment, until the 'me' presented to the world, the outer me that has learned conditioning, and the 'rules' of life as played by the majority...is disposessed of its space...and then I am truelly one. I am then the true me- the iner person, both outside and inside. Not just glimmers of me. Flashes. But a continuous burning flame of one 'me.
If there is only one- then why the struggle to truelly be raw and exposed? It would be effortless. For me it takes a conscious mindfullness, not to be clever but to be true. It is easier to present outwardly what is accepted, then to venture unconventionally for the inside person who's true worth may not be valued in the way commodities are gauged.
Perhaps when the inner me, has taken its rightfull postion within me- will the duality cease....but my truth, while it may no be yours, my truth is that there is a duality- there is the me asking the questions that is the carrier of the spirit and there is the 'me' that is the spirit. There is the spirit and the vessel which carries it..There is the actor in the movie who is the engager, and the viewer, who watches the engager and guides it. The engager doesnt always listen to the guide.
The duality for me exists. It creates my learning, as I put the 'me', the natural state, back into the 'me' that I have allowed to be conditioned by the world.
When I say 'maybe' me is enough...it may not be enough for the conditioned world that may like 'me' to be something else....but maybe 'me' is enough for 'me'.? And maybe that it is so, IS enough for 'me'. It is all that the real, true, inner me seeks ...it seeks to be fulflled. It seeks to fill the space that 'i', the being takes up. My flesh and blood, sinews and bones seek Just to be FILLED- FULL of inner 'me'.
my truth is only my truth- words are incapable of fully expressing the unconscious...but that is a flavour of how it feels....how it feels to 'me-me' at least
