YaY!! Good News!!

[geenadavis]

 
I'm so stoked-- I just found out I got called back from an audition (only my 2nd musical audition ever!!) ... The audition was like 3 weeks ago, so I had already let it go, thinking I didn't get it..... so I was really surprised and excited to get that in my inbox!!

it's for a summer theater up in Maine. . . So I could be spending the summer in Maine!!! how cool is that!!?? heee hee. . .

The callback is on Thursday (it's a dance callback)... I'm a little nervous cuz I'm going to have to tap-- And I know I'm not the best tapper..... But I was honest at the audition when the auditor asked me on a scale of 1-10 how good I was and i said I was a "5".... about average. ...I guess she appreciated my honesty??!

I've been questioning my decision to act/dance for a while now.... but after getting that email, I got a surge of electricity throughout my body...!! and it's just a callback!! it really helped me believe this IS what I want to do. . .

anyway, I'm squeezing in two more tap classes (i had one last nite) before thurs, in hopes of upping my skillz 

I'm gonna use all my charm and my pizzazz on thursday!! 

Wish Me Luck!!


-karen

[Anyotherbusiness]

You say wish you luck but having read your post and previous stuff by you I would rather wish you to stay in the flow because your words sound really congruent and right and have brought you this success.

Go to it!

[Mark]

Go Karen,

Enjoy and keep us informed of your news!! 

With love
Mark

[Michael Neill]

Fantastic, Karen - have fun and learn heaps!   

love,
michael

[angie]

Wow!
i can feel the excitement from here!!!
go girl!!!!
Ange xx

[vernon]

Fantastic news and well deserved !

Vernon

[geenadavis]

well... i didn't want to post this, but as it was a learning experience, here I am!

I didn't make it to the callback. I didn't sleep at all the night prior to the audition. fevery; hot; cold; tossing/turning etc... and there's part of me that believes I created that. ...That I was in so much fear, i got myself sick so I wouldn't have to go!

I had been sick for a few weeks before this, so I could ration, as well, that it was just "aftershock" that I had no control over.

Truth is, I could have sucked it up. I almost did. But i honestly felt completely awful that night/morning. For whatever reason.

And I was already nervous about my tapping skills.... so being sick and fevery didn't add anything to my confidence level.

I (read: Fear) subsequently convinced myself that this (acting) is actually not what I want to do. (!!) Can you believe that??? Fear is smart. Way smarter than I had ever imagined. My Fear has a PhD in "Karen Should Not Be An Actress!!"

But from this experience comes a GREAT big lesson. After talking it over with the coach I'm working with, I realized that this is all fear that's talking.     It's all fear making me doubt myself left and right and it's my FEAR that's ultimately keeping me safe and sound right where I am.

what a great lesson.

NOW, I can move forward with more strength and more confidence than I've probably ever had before. And am I scared?? Hell, yeah. ...But no more doubt. I refuse to entertain it anymore.

I got myself a private tap coach that I'm going to be working with starting on the 17th and in the meantime, am still taking classes and going to my voice lessons. AND I'm meditating and focusing on my vision of what I am creating. And leaving the past in the past where it belongs.

"I can be what I will to be."

thank you all for your kind words. I love this forum and i'll keep you posted!!! 


 

karen

[Michael Neill]

Hey, Karen -

About twelve years ago I was hired as a reader for the auditions for the West End production of Crazy For You.  It was great fun, and besides getting to be the first one to kiss Ruthie Henshall (albeit on the cheek!) I was also given the opportunity to audition myself.  I was so bad in the dance auditions they thought I was joking, and had me audition for one of the comedy (speaking only) parts!

I worked myself into a frenzy about my crappy tap skills and vowed to study diligently and bring my feet up to speed before the next round of auditions.  That wasn't me making the vow, and it wasn't even fear - it was the part of me that wanted to prove that I was worthy, even though my skills hadn't been up to snuff.

No idea if this has any resonance with you, but please know that you are enough exactly as you are, and you are loved and supported by all of us (well, at least me, but I suspect all of us!) whether you carry on or give up, work hard or work easy, succeed or fail.

(It must be said, however, that when you open on Broadway I do expect tickets...  )

love,
michael

[vernon]

Dear Karen

I could not agree more- have definitely moved into the rooting for you mode whatever the outcome thanks to your very honest posts and admire your pluck and frankness at each turn. But hey , just go for it , you are supported all the way and use that to give you strength and impetus

Vernon

[geenadavis]

Wow, thank you Michael. You brought tears to my eyes!!  and thank you vernon, too, for your kind words.

Yeah, I'm keepin on keepin on. Some days are easier/harder than others, but everybody keeps sayin it's all about that pesky journey 

I love your story. that's hilarious.  ...I told my voice coach I didn't make it to the callbk and he told me he once got cast in a show where there was tapping and he was so bad they actually took the bottoms off of his tap shoes so they wouldn't make any noise. hhaha

i'll keep you posted on future endeavors... successes and failures alike.

...and when i do make it to Broadway, I will absolutely send you tickets!!