Natural confidence - Genius Catalyst

I recently played this on the IPod, but I'm going to listen to it again. But then all Michael's shows are worth repeating.

So I'm new here and maybe I should create a post of my own or something, but...I listen to Michael pretty much religiously, on my way to work at night. Michael, Summer McStravick's "Flowdreaming" and Sylvia Browne. "You Can Have What You Want" makes me confident I'm on the brink of something really big. Really big. I don't know what or when, but gosh if I'm not like a child sitting in fascinated wonder at all I know to be this amazing voice of superhuman logic and reason in my ear, this voice that has become so special to me, a voice that has given me chills on many an occasion. I could see that wall he said he once held onto and I am so thankful he realized to never ever let go. He really is my hero.

I take the airport bus from where I live back and forth (beats driving the commute myself and having to deal with parking) and I sort of stare out the window and focus. I always know something he says is going to hit me like a truck and I am always waiting for it. We have a little conversation in my head sometimes. "What's your fear and how are you releasing that to go for it?" he asks me. I hesitate because I know what my fear is, I just hate having to hear myself acknowledge it. "I'm scared no airline will ever see what potential I have and allow me to become a flight attendant for them because it doesn't say so on paper. The market is crowded for too few openings as it is. If all I am is an application of gaps and far too many unrelated jobs in ten years, who would think that suffices for me to be able to save a plane in the instance something occurs?" I kind of end the conversation there because I don't want to go down the negative affirmation path, and it would be better for me to do more listening than talking, and then it becomes a tumultuous roller coaster of highs and dips where there are doubts...

Anyway, every single day I pass the British Airways check in desk on my way to where I work. I know they have had no vacancies for who knows how long and I hate rejection, but to conquer my fear would be to walk up to someone there and just casually inquire if they might be looking for someone there - even part time - I already have security clearance so it doesn't require much work checking me out and all the other stuff that goes with working in aviation. I mean, what's the worst they could say, buzz off? Maybe I have to go through non-traditional means, go through the back door so they say...

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