I realized going back through my journal that I have been writing about other people, the very aspect of myself, that I loathe. ie. "a wash out, won't change, not coping very well, not making any strides to become better, can't be bothered, lacks motivation." I seriously believe now that I was writing about myself all along. even though I wasn't aware of it at the time. it's creepy and disgusting that we do this. I think there are other examples of this in my life as well.
It seems, I'm able to first spot in others the various aspects of myself that I resist....
What does it mean? Why do we do this? and most important question, What do we do once the light has come in?